Friday, April 28, 2006 @3:52 PM
i was expecting a fun day to end of the week and a signal to a long weekend. besides friday is a hella short day. but no! today's one of the worst day ever in j2. or my whole jc life. it's not so much about things that affected me directly but things that indirectly caused my sucky mood.
all drama happens during gp. always.
because we were so bored with lessons, we just took a break and matt was talking to mdm about this gay couple blog and decided to share it with all of us. i don't think it's nice to share the blogsite here. i don't know if this couple really wanted to publicize their relationship or it was some awful prank which just keep spreading.
when he flashed it on the projector, everyone burst into fits of laughter. some laughed because one partner had really bad english. like really bad. (the other was a lot better and sane) and some were laughing over the neoprints they took. basically, it was just a fun and leisure killing-time period and everyone was 'enjoying themselves' in their own ways. and also making a bit offensive comments, like "when i see them, i'll stone them" kinda thing. and i supposed it got a bit out of hand because gayle was really offended and she gave her one piece worth and started crying.
ok, that shocked me. if there are no emotional tags involved, i do feel that gayle over reacted a bit and despite me being a friend, i felt that it wasn't that bad. so i feel that there's probably more to it and the whole incident was the last straw.
so i could see where the class would be heading too if they don't know gayle well and there are rumours flying around about her. and true enough, after the lesson, during math lect, some girls were openly talking about it.
but seriously i could see where they were coming from and i actually thought that what bobby, amaria and matt said made sense. even if i am not that close to matt and bobby, i could understand how they felt. we had always known they had low or no tolerance for gay so i'm immune to it.
besides, i have resolved to the fact that everyone is entitled to their own opinions. it's just like how i bitch about them for being cool-wannabes. it's the same. but i dont confront them because that's their way of life. i don't like it but i respect it. although i dont see the whole big fuss about homosexuality and they do, i just keep it to myself. and i'm the kind who wouldn't say anything unless i feel comfortable around you. my opinions are sacred. (lol)
but i was quite thankful that jolene was not around, knowing how she laugh and how insensitive she is.
it's been a really long time since someone cried in class so openly. i think the last time was when i was in sec2 in the computer lab. shit, this time it's again the com lab. the lab is cursed man. and i thought something even more dramatic was going to happen when the whole saga ended. i don't know if i actually felt relieved that nothing of what i thought was going to happen happened. if not it would be another round of dramatic episode.
i am always troubled when things like that happen. it makes me think too much and it makes me moody the whole day. i was just happy that there's a long weekend for everyone to simmer down.
on a lighter note, we were just wondering if they'd think that we are les. haha. so i was like shit, we need to get attached to prove it to them. i was joking. i am not that superficial and stupid. and besides, i have an attraction for guys, though i do say that wah, this girl is damn hot.