Friday, April 14, 2006 @10:14 AM
Thursday 14th April.. i was mentally drained. first i had a horrible day in school cos i kept forgetting my stuff. there's something really wrong with my short term memory. and i wasted taxi money. bloody hell. but the day was made better when we were chilling out in starbucks. yeah, but i couldn't sleep last night cos of the cuppacino i drank. caffine in the evening is BAD for you. i was still so energetic at 2am this morning.
and finally after a loong time, after so long into our friendship, i finally got to talk to her who is really close to my heart. i felt so sad for her and i don't really know what to do about it. yes, i can console her and assure her that i'll always be around, but sometimes i feel so torn about what i have to do and what i dare to do. it sucks when things get so tricky and you are the middleman. the instrumental key to unlock the mysteries of two individuals. it's really tough. but at least i know i made her feel better and i will try to be there for her more. and i really hope the other person doesn't disappoint me.
"it sure hurts when one of your closest friends start to drift apart"
i know how it feels and my way to deal with it or any relationship problems is so shut it off. by locking this problem in a compartment in your brain and hardwired yourself to never open the door or i will never able to handle what's going to gush out, that has been accumulating over time.
some people prefer to trash it out when some prefer to just keep it know to myself. i prefer the latter.