Wednesday, April 19, 2006 @10:07 PM
ok, this is seeyun's friends saga part II
now i don't know who to believe or who to listen to? i'm starting to doubt that friend i thought she was really quite poor thing. let's call her A. sometimes, i feel that because i'm the only one she can talk to and she believes that i regard her very highly as my good friend, and hence she takes me for granted? she tells me that B, the other girl i referred to the other time, has changed and blah blah blah. but then i really do not think that B has changed and i always tell A it's because she's really busy. but A thinks that she's caught up with her new friends and has neglected her.
but but but, in a new environment, you need to make friends. and if you don't find friends in your class and cling on to your sec sch friends only, that makes you a really anti-social person and you are kinda outcasted yeah?
i understand A is unable to find friends she is able to relate to in class and she's quite upset about it, but if i take myself out of 'her friend' context, i seriously wonder has she been trying or is her expectations too high? new friends cannot be clones of old friends. my class friends are really different from my clique in mg, but i love the change and it makes me more diversed instead of still holding to i'm from mg, i'm almighty and rich mindset. it just turns people off
i think A was quite upset with me when she came to complain to me about her classmates during recess cos i was talking to my friends. but she was reading her chem notes and she was bitching about someone i has no comments about. so when she saw B in the toilet, she dumped me.
and then during our meeting, i think she was still pissed. we were discussing about sentosa and meeting at 12. then she said this right in front of my face to B "hey, let's meet earlier to eat lar. don't need to ask seeyun. she never .... (i can't remember)"
bloody hell
bonnie called that "insensitive" but i call it "on purpose"
aishhhh.. i'm such a two-faced. i feel bad ranting about her, but i need to analyse the whole situation here or keeping it inside my body will kill me eventually if i don't let it out