Wednesday, April 12, 2006 @2:33 PM
honestly, this is the only day of the whole week that i'm actually at home at 2.30 and i love it. school should be like that, but i really don't wanna go through or i don't think you guys wanna go through the whole ordeal of how our timetable sucks because our timetable is bloody the long. but oh well, we suffered in j1 or i don't see the whole point of complainin when we are already in j2 and into term 2. that's y i do not think that today's PCCG period was productive, by comparing our timetables with vj/rj. we all know why they have short time tables and i can totally understand how irritating it is when my rj friends can come out to me and say "my longest day ends at 2.30" as much as i want to strangle her, i realize that such a regime will not work in ac because our cohort has huge disparities and not filled with people comparing how many S papers they have. instead we are "oh no, what if we have to drop our 4th subj?" or worse, "oh no. i just failed As using my term exams grades." yeah, since there's no basis for comparison, therefore, just live it it.
and mdm's stretching-over-3-lessons study methods peptalk is .. aish.. useless. like how humans are built differently with different characters, we study differently. i believe everyone will take different routes to get to the same target. and although it's the same target at the same point, the path one takes may be hazardous to the other or you might trip over more pebbles and take a longer time to reach your point. so i don't see how sharing your 'study tips' are useful. i mean, duh, you have to memorize, you have to be disciplined. who doesn't know that. so i really don't think how it is possible to tell someone you study because everyone will study the same thing, but just at different pace and different time-tables. but ultimately you do the same thing.
i know for me, if it comes to memorizing history notes, i cannot be near anyone. i need to be locked up in my room on my bed, with the notes sprawled all over the floor, the sofa, the bed, a highlighter in my hand, reading the notes aloud to myself, and keep repeating the same points over a couple of times till it's stucked in my head. it's eccentric you would think, but if it helps me remember my stuff, i'd stick to being weird.
but of course, there are subjects that work best if you study in a group aka math. and maybe econs. but honestly, i still have not gotten the technique to go about studying econs. i really don't know how to plough through my notes and even if i study, i cannot answer questions, except MCQ. could it be i've been thinking of it as a SCIENCE subject, and i just read and understand, but not memorizing, so i can never get the termology right and hence, my essay or answers sound really non-economics and childlike. i think it's this problem and so, i suppose i have to pay a lot and i mean ALOT more time on it. it's the only subject that i'm REALLY disappointed in especially when you study a lot harder than you had for promos, but your grades are still the same.
something apart from mundane school stuff, bonnie and i were talking about death during assembly today. cos bonnie was like "my life sucks now. if i die tomorrow, i'll just regret not having fun" and hence we began this weird convo. but i think both of us are pretty much fine with death. i'm totally fine with death as in i don't fear if i were to die tmr, but i'm more afraid of people around me die. as a matter of fact, i dare not look into a coffin. i have never looked into one before.. it's one of this inborn fear. but for bonnie, it's more like what's life after death. because we are brought up with the idea of heaven and hell, the possibility of you going to hell after death simply puts off the whole idea of death and we just wish it's a world of nothingness. then so i said that when i die and it's a world of nothingness and i'll be a wondering soul, i wanna go travelling. then i'll be in the airplane and playing tricks on the travellers. haha, so fun. and i can go everyone for free, sitting first class plane, sleeping in first class suite and visiting the weirdest places even. first thing that came to my mind: zimbabwe. i am really fascinated by this african country at first in upper sec cos all our human geog maps are on this country. then more this year in history and gp. so i really wanna visit it. and namibia. or niger. all the african countries. i'd love to visit africa and safari. oooh.. *gush* yeah, so death aint a scary thing. but i want quick death not draggy death and you suffer so much before you die. and like bonnie said, it's not morbid, it's actually optimistic that you can think about death so lightly and be brave about it.
we always have weird conversations don't we. and last week, when jo wasn't around, moniza, bonnie and i are determined that we cannot be a virgin when we are 30 (or what? i cannot remember the age) and we will pay a handsome sum to some young man to get it done. haha. it's hilarious how 'desperate' we are.
and bonnie said something hurtful about my life on monday (i think). haha, she was like "seeyun, i can believe it. i thought you'd have a more interesting life than this"
hot hot heat- running out of time
Witless, humorless conversation
Has filled me up like an old gas station
I'm wallowing in a pool of gasoline
Self appointed sheriff of a popular ghost town
I'm open to bribes but I've arrested no one
I'm galloping off to meet my bride to be
She'll woo the saloon then sing us both to sleep
But... I'm running out of time
I'm running out of tim
eI'm running out of time
I've run out of time
Drop dead gorgeous art history drop out
Thought her father ought to pay for her to clear the whole shop out
She carries her cameras in hand to complete the look
Screenplay players co-writing a screenplay
Cotton candy for the eyes but cotton balls for the brain
He thinks to himself, "Thank God the bar's not too high."
Just look at his face and then you'll see why
But... I'm running out of time
I'm running out of time
I'm running out of time I've run out of time
Hollywood waiter with a chip on his shoulder
Only break has been his back and yet he's just getting older
He's washing his clothes in a sink of self-pity
Retired ball player guest-hosting a talk show
Earned a trophy and a wife and twice he's won the lotto
I'm running away but don't know who from or why
Just look in his eyes and then you'll see why
I'm running out of time
I'm running out of time
I'm running out of time I've run out of time
I'm running out of time
I'm running out of time
I'm running out of time I've run out of time
such a no brainer song that i listen to these days