Wednesday, March 08, 2006 @3:49 PM
when something hits you for the first time, you would be caught by surprised so you are not so affected by it. but throughout the course, you know alot more about it and you turn more afraid. when it strikes you again, the impact is alot greater. we were talking about this guy with cancer relapse some time ago and we wonder why god wants to play tricks on us?
bonnie said that i'm someone who act tough. in a way, yar, i agree. she said that even when i need help, i'll just pull it through it myself. ha, quite true. i'm being an ass. i dun like being pitied, i know it's concern but i would just not like how people look at me differently cos of something. it's the same how the physically-impaired do not like people to take pity on them, but instead just treat them normally.
i'm babbling because some things have been bugging me and it had bugged me couple of years ago and now it's back again, it just fustrates me because it's like anchoring me down. i know i should feel fortunate that it is not life-threatening and i should not complain so much, but when you know the inconvenience and the side effects of this, and the troublesome need of having to cure it just make me really upset.
i should stop thinking too much about it.
yuck yuck. terms are just two days away. GP and chinese. yuck yuck.