Wednesday, March 22, 2006 @7:17 PM
i hate it when you study but you still can't do the damn paper. ok, i studied for econs okay! but the drq sucks hell. i forgot my quantity theory of money. i was thinking it's mv=pt and i even wrote it down but i didn't know how to explain it so i cancelled it.
!#!@%$#^%$^& fish! crap! suck! argh! i'm so angry with myself. and i hope i wrote okay for my 12mark question. i was seriously rambling. why must they make the damn paper so hard!!! but i was thankful i could do the mcq. prolly a few errors but i'm quite happy with it cos i know what i was doing.
damn econs.
ok, and it's a vicious cycle cos i was too stressed over history to study for econs during the weekend. history was BLEH. jo and ruth and i just couldn't do the UN sbq. we read it, pause, think, write our pathetic intro, then how ah? so i was randomly choosing my similarities of sources and it was bad. SEA sbq was not that bad, at least it's obvious which are the confirming and disconfirming sources. but it's just, i feel so shaky w/o assistance. it's like you are not sure if you hit the lorms and you are blindly writing. it feels like you are blind and trying to get to a destination by feeling or bumping your way through. and my essays. aish. you just can't study too much sometimes. i've so much to write but in the end i had to write rather skimpy for some points because i realize if i write all the facts down, i will just go on forever. so i kept my answers to all 4 pages long (essays i mean). and it's a bloody 3 hour paper. i got the feel of what it is like to sit for 3 hours and write and you can't stop because you really need 45min for each essay or you will either not hit 4 page or you will write crap. yes, so basically it's writing writing and more writing. but i'm quite thankful i only have 2 3h essay papers. ha, the lit-hist ppl will have 5 3h essay papers.
oh well, tmr's math. i really cannot do 3-D. i cannot see the stupid diagram. i cannot see triangles within cubes. and andre was like "i end my exams today because math is not a paper." die andre. die. at least i understood numerical methods! yay! finally! and hopefully i can do integration minus the volume part. see i can't see math that is 3-D. can't they just make it 2-D and you just have to play around with numbers and not figures. i don't mind graphs, but don't make me visualize figures. i just cannot see it okay. that's y i'm not gifted. i remember in p4 and p6 when you sit for those gifted exams, they give you these figures. i didn't bother doing it. my mother tried to train me but ha, i've no skills for it.
i'm so not looking forward to getting back the results. i don't want SSP. i don't want to drop my 4th subj.
but if i were to drop, i'll prolly drop history. jo and i came to a conclusion that history is the only subject that gives you panic attacks and make you pee in your pants. seriously. it's damn stressful to sit for a history paper. it's the only paper that i come out with nervous cramps and it happens 3x already so i'm sure it's because of history. yar, and it's too hard to study for it. non-history ppl think you just need to memorize facts, but NO! you need arguments and you gotta formulate arguments on the spot sometimes. plus ngoei is terrifying. feel so stupid in his class all the time.
ok, on the brighter note, tmr's my last paper and we have to lessons after that. woohoo. and thus it's time to chill out. so much i wanna do in town.