Saturday, February 11, 2006 @4:40 PM
every jc2 (especially) in ac has the same sentiments: i never knew fun-o-rama was so much work. i want to be the one paying to eat and play in fun-o-rama.
sigh. but too bad. no such hopes.
i was just reading huat's blog about how their class abort the idea of a food stall. dunno the exact details, but i'm definitely thankful we managed to find good sponsors, great deals for our chocolate and fruits. haha. and hopefully m'sia mashmellows.
to think about it, i think everyone in class contributed in one way or other. calling up people hoping to get sponsors and basically just trying to keep our stalls a success. *cross fingers*
yesterday conversation with bonnie set me thinking. at first it was the whole materialistic superficial view about me and my future. the need to conform. i still take my stand. i believe that in singapore, it's not that easy to say i want a break from this competitive world, i'm gonna take a step back. do something i like and live a life of my own. but i think it's not that easy to pursue something that you like or simply just volunteering all your life. volunteering requires you to have a sum of money in hand. either you are born rich or you have to work for these money. doesn't that put you in the catagory: study so that you earn enough money for a living. hmm, i think even if you are doing something you like, say music, unless you are aware of the competive nature of life, you will just be left behind if you dont improve.
singapore is not a welfare state. damn. we can't leech off people.
i really don't think i can just say: i enjoy arts. i want to do something arts related. there's always this warning sign in me that tells me to be more realistic.
but ha. i might just follow my instincts.
and yeah, bonnie was just analysing my character. which i think was very accurate. and her analysis of jo was quite accurate as well. and yeah, i told her about her character. i suddenly realize despite only knowing each other for half a year.. as in getting close due to PW and stuff, we pretty much know each other quite well and have learnt to accomodate and compromise.
yeah and so it was really quite future-focussed. then out of the blue, bonnie asked me to check out this girl's blog. and another revelation.
what's this paper-chasing when you are not even sure if you are around tomorrow? it is a bit morbid and sometimes you think why do such things happen to people. why give someone hopes and then destroy it again?
this year, i got to know many things that i dont know previously. maybe i'm less sheltered? it's the vulnerability of life. you might not see someone you are so used to seeing everyday.