Wednesday, January 18, 2006 @5:51 PM
sometimes relationships with friends are so much harder to deal with than intimate relationships.
i was talking to liz about her and as well as our outlooks and problems faced with friends/acquantiances.
i like what liz said about how everyone should move on instead of staying in their mg days. mg days, were the days of the past. very enjoyable but un-real as we were so un-exposed. so, if we cling on to the belief that all of us are still sec4s, there'll be no end to it.
i love talking to liz and yeah, despite us being in different schools and having our different bunch of friends, when we meet, we still have an endless fray of topics to attack. and we are not the kind of friend who talks on msn.. we often seem stuck when we are on msn huh? but when we meet for dinners, the conversations just keep coming and i'm very glad that you are the bestest friend and closest confidant in our clique.
yup, i totally love it when you said that i can come and talk to you whenever i'm troubled as you will still be the same liz.
truthfully i know you've changed and i've changed as well. but it's really fortunate that despite all these, when we meet each other, we are still the sitting partners in 4a2 and we remain sec4-likes with more matured and ehemuglyehem language.
i'd say i'm not a someone trying-hard-to-be-nice. definitely, i'd like most people to see the sweet, gentle, loving, understanding side of seeyun. but i always think that sweetness brings u that far.. if you continue to be nice and loving, you will just to tiring yourself and worse off, you'll be seen as fake by some people.
sometimes, it's just so hard to be the 'perfect person' you hope people can perceive you as. and i'm sure everyone strives to be the popular person. but for me, i'd just like to be myself. self-centred: me. myself and I.
i admit i can curse quite abit and i know some people in my class simply can't stand it. and like what liz said yesterday, and "i'll purposedly curse in front of her". nah, i don't think i'm that evil and i dont curse aloud a lot.
and i know i can be quite critical in the way i see people. i know it's my flaw. i'm trying to change. trying to tone down and be less caustic.
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alritey, should stop talking about myself. anyway, we got to meet our junior class. it's such a small class of 17 and we gotta share junior class with ahblue. hmm, i'm not exactly happy about it: 56:17. do you own calculation. and we can just imagine how it's gonna be monopolized and maybe the rest of us can take the randoms. it's so easy to see the divide: the enthu ppl who can't wait to have a party with the blues and the indifferent ones who just wait for the randoms. so as much as i like the j1s, i'm not looking forward for the 1st SJI.
oh oh oh.. the very hot mixed st margs girl is in my junior class. she's really pretty, but not sure abt personality though..
haha, it's hilarious btw to hear my og mates complaining about how their class is practically swarmed by foreigners. haha. it's very sad lar. but to be honest, most sci best classes are like that. it's like the 'duh' thing. but i supposed it shouldnt be that bad cos scholars ain't that bad afterall. i haven't been in a class with lots of scholars so i can't comment. but haha, they are really good study motivators. period. and there's a sconer in my og. hmm, but their combi is so different from the tradition sconers.
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talking about scholars, yeah he was nice to call me just now to apologize for not being able to attend the welcome party (yes i insist in calling it a party, instead of welcome tea. so what?)
but what's done is done. you can't just tell me you're sorry and expect nothing to happen. and i'm not the one to make the decisions. the two teacher i/cs are pissed so i supp.. good luck?
today's welcome party was so overwhelming. 70 people interested and signed up??!?!!? i tried scaring them with the commitment, don't treat it as a crutch, we are the most active club around. haha, but it just didn't work. damn it. it's scary to be in charge of 70 people. oh well, i'm sure ppl will start streaming out once their sports ccas are finalized. *cross fingers*. i just want about 30 active members and i'm more than ecstatic