Friday, December 16, 2005 @7:41 AM
haha. weird title? but you will figure out later if you are smart (muahaha, so if you are not smart, *dots*) hint: the way my entry is being structured
it's gonna be a pretty long entry
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still in melbourne. like i said to a lot of w's friends, i really don't look forward to going back to singapore. not that it's so fun that i refuse to pull my butt away from australia, but it's the reality of school that i got to face. people have started sms-ing me, emailing me when i will be back because i need to gear up for all my commitments.
-my og partner sms-ed me to call him back when i reach singapore. ha, i'm so sorry that i left him all alone during the camp and he had to start painting banner all by himself. ok, i'll make sure that i contribute more during the camp.
-then mrs lek emailed me FINALLY and asked me about suitable people to replace some positions. but i think it's not just me who can decide.. got to ask the rest of the committee. but ricky sms-ed me to tell me that he'll be staying for sup papers. really hope he can pass all the subjects so that i don't have to find a CIP director and he's a very responsible guy.
ok, see now i've mixed feelings about my return. i can't wait to meet up with my friends. but it's not just my family that is waiting for me at home, but the pile of homework. i've 10 days to finish up my history assignment (which he gave practically not much help. email was just punctuated with loads of sarcasm.. as usual), gp assignments, economics self-study and the test to prepare for. and these 10 days still packed in my ogl camp, christmas and new year. STRESSED! and i'm worrying here in australia which shouldn't be the case. damn it.
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2006 got to be a "fun" year. fun as i'm gonna be a senior and it's my 2nd and final year with the class. fun as i will be torturing myself. fun as my life will turn black and white. literally. papers. notes. books. assignments. photocopying. fun as it determines what uni i go to in 2007: do i remain in singapore or i get the chance to go abroad.
i'm turning psychotic.
soon my holidays will end and it's time to welcome 2006. new year symbolizes new resolutions. resolutions that expire after the 1st month of the year.
i definitely have my resolutions for the year
1. be resourceful and spend my time well. no more slacking and sleeping through lectures even if the lecturer is dead boring. i really hope i get good econs lecturers and tutors next year *cross fingers*zh, if you remember, we are supposed to be mugger bugger.
school-based resolutions are always a must but there's another personal resolution.
2. don't neglect my social life. keep in contact with everyone even if it's a mere simple "hi"i've raised this issue previously and i felt that now it's a good time to start contacting people i have not contacted for a year, as well as maintain the friendship i have with bonds created this year. be it people from bintan 4, CCAAB, interact or random and even w's friends.
i sometimes wonder if those people that i haven't sms-ed for a year still remember me or if my contact still exists in their phonebook. therefore it's a river to cross as it'd be embarrassing if they can't remember me.
just two major resolutions this year. not that hard to achieve actually. and i personally find these resolutions fitting into the balanced life i hoped to achieve next year.
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before i sleep last night, i made it a point to blog today and the title was thought before i sleep.
it was my cousin's graduation yesterday and she's the closest cousin of mine. haha, i bet she's honoured to hear that and i would say that she's the only one who can motivate me to write a not-so-dark poem. the poem dedicated to her was one of the really few sweet poems that i write.
one of the main reasons why i enjoyed my trip so far was not the superficial but the chats i had with my cousinS. the one in brisbane as well as the one in melbourne. it's weird that i don't talk to my sister about such stuff because my sis is basically a good listener but less of a speaker. but by speaking to my cousins, it's not so much about ranting, but it's more of hearing the different opinions, getting similar views about issues well as being rebutted by different opinions.
i'm really happy for my cousin to get a job right after graduation and i know that it's gonna be a tough job. but she's based in singapore, making meeting up with her much easier (or at least i hope)
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another bunch of people that i talked to quite abit are my cousin's friends, the honors bunch. like i said previously, they introduced me to something that never really crossed my mind: my career. they are all looking for jobs/have jobs/finishing their studies and moving on to the next window in life. yeah and of course the friends i have in singapore are basically schoolies, just waiting to get out of the rigid system (ehem). so the chats they have are OBVIOUSLY different from those i would have with my groups of friends. interesting twist with sweet results.
last night, after some dinner and drinks, we went to have some coffee and chat again. we touched on different issues: religion, school, life, holidaying (i still want to bungee-jump in NZ), personal.
when aaron asked us what was the highlight of the GC trip, haha, at the point of time i said, mealtimes. haha. ok, the question came too abrupt and i din have time to think. so right now, i slash that and say "the friends i made on the trip".
for many of the people, their highlight was "polar bear" game which i introduce (haha, i feel so proud of myself. muahaha) because they really got to see different views of people and it was THE bonding session for them.
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yesterday was a loong day and i had many pockets of time to think through stuff. i realized how much i have opened up since secondary school, especially after sec2 when i got more exposure. in pri school, i was although quite independent, i was still very sheltered from society. and being the one girl from my pri school to MGS, it made it a must to make friendss as quickly as possible or i'll be a loner. but i felt that although i have close friends whom i still see occassionally, the whole friendship-making was not successful. but for some reason (i need to take time to figure out), i opened up a lot in sec3, became more chatty and got to know more people.
so when my grandma said i had always been a quiet girl, she's quite right. i did not enjoy pri school that much which explains why i was alot more reserved.
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haha, i rambled too much. so does the title make sense now? i hope it does cos i'm quite proud this title i thought of. yes. i heard "Cough.ego.cough". but :p