Saturday, July 02, 2005 @7:07 AM
today i just had a gathering with my clique.. yams, debo, sheryl, eunice, gen and LIZ (i'm so sorry liz, you are my best bud and i din write your name) i love the feeling after hanging out with them. i went home smiling and today is definitely a happy day. whee! (:(:(: i love my lovely friends. despite not seeing each other often.. in different jcs or different combis, the closeness among us still remained the same. we can joke and laugh and talk about all matters under the sun. even if we tease debo a lot, she knows that we are just joking.. and everyone takes things lightly. but i'm not sure if i ever be able to do that with people in my class. we are good friends, but not close. maybe we can blame it on the time.. it's only 6 months, but in a2, we were very close since jan. i'm not sure what's wrong.. maybe we just can't click or maybe we really need more time to warm up. or is just me being biased, i'd always think my a2 clique is the best and maybe subconsciously i dun wanna change that fact. we were discussing about how superficial people in jc are. everyone worries about their futures in jc, everyone wants to shine in jc, nobody wants to be a outcast in jc. it's a totally different environment. i had to admit we are really sheltered in mg.. we never get to see the "real" world and how mean or how ppl can backstab you. it's quite frightening to think about it. that's why this makes me think about the course i wanna study.. if i do business, i'd always have to mask myself and put up a false front. i dunno if such a job would fit me. although i think i'm quite sensitive, i tend to be abit sarcastic.. so probably when i work, i gotta control my temper. precisely why we were discussing how frightening the real world is. haha, we were all complaining how we dun wanna grow up. i don't think i'm enjoying jc life as much as secondary sch life. true, jc life is fun-filled with events and activities, you feel accomplished but your heart still feels hollow. there are certain things that cannot be filled without close friendship. we can say jc life is just 2 years, everyone's gearing towards As, no one actually cares about making friends... but i believe it's friends that can see us through the whole tormenting year. during O levels, i really enjoyed friends' company and it's through their encouragement and constant reminder that i can keep up with my work, revise consistently and feel motivated to move on. it's also during the exam period that we got much closer. i remember eunice was my darling study pal.. eunice, haha, we can still study math and econs together.. (: as i was going home, i was talking to my dad about how i really enjoyed myself today. he said that it's of course we are close to our sec sch frens. cos it's the period whereby we are innocent yet not so, mature yet not so. so the friendship we have is pure.. no one has bad feelings about anyone. but in jc and uni, it's hard or almost impossible to find true friends, cos everyone are finding friends for relations. you make friends with her cos her dad is the CEO of whatever company. it's really very superficial. although people might say it's not the case, you can still find true friends, but i really can't justify to this belief cos it's just... not realistic? precisely why my dad wanted me to go rj at first cos rafflesians grow up to be professionals and it's the kind of connections you should have in future. thank goodness i din go there.. first, it's overly competitive and rafflesians are supposedly more superficial than acsians. the girls are more bimbo.. like 24/7 comparing which guy is hot and which guy is not. some of my friends who went there changed.. so i'm actually quite relieved cos i think it's just stupid gossiping about such stuff when there are more important and interesting things to care about other than how hot the guy's body is. my dad also said that in order for all of us to remain as close friends, it's actually everyone's effort. everyone gotta make the tiny lil effort to meet up. although we might not gather for the whole day, at least a dinner would be enough for us to catch up and stuff..
so peeps, we gotta try to make it for every gathering planned ok? *hint hint*
btw, federer rocks my world. we realized he cannot take front view pics cos his eyes are weird.. but he looks hot sideview.. roddick beat johansson just now.. 6-7 (6-8). 6-2, 7-6 (12-10), 7-6 (7-5) so it's a federer Vs roddick final. sth to look forward to actually.. venus williams and davenport match is going on now..
and i realized f1 is so cool.. haha.